Varun but Vaguely

 I've always considered mistakes as a part of life, I learn by making mistakes and find making my own mistakes much more interesting( most of the time) and you know it's all fun and games till it all starts to get frustrating. some mistakes you make, some mistakes make you. it is all about the moderation in which both happen, in my recent past I've been making a lot of mistakes and repeatedly been making, it is one thing to make mistakes for yourself and the whole another when it starts to affect others. mistakes only make sense if you learn from them. as Einstein said, " it is a fool who keeps making the same mistakes hoping for a different result."  keep your mistakes to a minimum and always try to learn from them, see, life gives you chances its only a matter of time when you wake up and start using them. I believe God helps you in times of need and all things happen only by the grace of him. it's your duty now to make the most of it, take some help and run...

  Relapses are  really bad, they make you question every decision you make; you question your hard work your will to work harder, or even the purpose of doing what you do. All the patience, the hard work, persistence, the way to build your path all come down to nothing. It can be frustrating. But you know life never stops it keeps on going whether you want to go or not. So is the philosophy with relapses, it doesn’t matter if you are a cocaine addict or heroine. Whether alcohol is your vice or nicotine. Might as well be the modern drugs of porn or social media. If you don’t want to do it and your mind and body force you to do it, then it’s a relapse! And I don’t think it is something to be shameful of, instead you have to be proud of yourself to choose this tough path for yourself and people you love. Relapses are a part of the process and learn to walk only after falling a few times. What really matters is how long are you willing to stick with the process and how far y...

  Life is a full circle. I feel like whatever we do ultimately prepares us for something that is yet to come; take for example your school curriculum, whatever you are taught each day ultimately appears on the test paper. The same happens for life as well. The only difference is that we don’t know the syllabus. We keep on reading, writing may be the doing part, all that happens to us is a test or maybe a preparation of it. A story that highlights this phenomenon is of the great warrior prince of Yemen: Hatim. The brother of the princess Hatim is in love with is under a curse to be molded in stone; given by a demon. To kill the demon, Hatim has to answer 7 questions/ riddles. Each answer weakens the demon and releases a part of his body from the curse. The quest for answers forces him on an incredible journey. Every step of the journey puts a test in front of him and he has to use his morals and intellect to get ahead. Interestingly, all the previous milestones and people ...

Just like that, we start with something else one of the journeys ends, and 1 more starts. We only are the passengers freely flowing in the cosmos, we get born, we travel and somewhere our journey ends we don’t exactly know where it begins and ends. We don’t even know if it ends. According to Bhagwat Gita we take several births and live several lives and deal with such people, the deeds we do, the emotions we create in our fellow passengers is what we call karma. The written note of everything we did, do, or will do. The balance sheet that decides what we deserve and how much . It has a line where Krishna describes that he and Arjun have had many lives spent together only that parth doesn’t remember them. Then is the western philosophy of YOLO wherein you only live once and whatever is there that is this life. We live once and die too only once. All the good and bad are summed up only in a lifetime i.e., birth to death. The Indian philosophy adds these two. It gives us the conc...

 In life we always want stability, what do I mean by this? It simply means you need to know what is going to happen next, we are engrossed in the future so much that we watch 2 and a half-hour of a movie just for the climax, do you ever sit and think while watching the movie, wth am I watching and why the hell!! But you still sit and test your patience, kyu ki paise bhare hai! Generally speaking people waste more money long term thinking they’re saving short term, buying cheap brand clothes and Chinese products are a few examples, the happiness of saving money now outweighs the fidget itch it will cause long term, i.e early wear out or poor performance by the product and turn to buy such products multiple times will get more money out of your pocket. Similarly knowing the climax of a movie will spoil it but we willingly go to the astrologers to find out how we’ll end up! I’ll tell you what happens in the end…YOU DIE! We had a meeting with our teachers regarding the upcoming e...

  6 months later I had gotten a chance to go out, it’s not that I saw the world after 180 days I just didn’t get a proper reason to move out, but today was different. We had run out some grocery and my brother and I decided to go to the mall and get whatever we need, we packed some of the extra bags with since we knew how we shop and they charged us extra for those feeble plastic bags they have there. All set with the essentials we arrived at the mall, much to my surprise the mall was just crowded as they were before the lockdown, the COVID-19 era hadn’t changed much of the human society, we go out just as much, only that we wear a mask when we go out. that’s it! We reached and wondered the place, nothing has changed, all, as usual, we collected all that we needed and head out. I noticed an old lady standing in front of the line, she was quite strange, wearing a scarf, a knitted sweater with an umbrella in her hand, and a baby pink sari inside. I wondered who wears baby pink! A...

  It had been a long day, Ronny has had it enough, he was pissed off, depressed, and feeling alone. The past 2 years he spent preparing for the all India scientists league but he got knocked out by 3 points in the entrance exam. All the sleepless nights, the painstaking notes, and the hope of all his friends and juniors were shattered. The visuals of their disappointment tormented him through the night. He was frustrated. He didn’t know what to do, he knew its not the end of his life neither that he was alone who fail in the entrance exam, many more of brilliant colleagues couldn’t get through it, his coaches too condoled him, “cheer up son! 1 exam is never enough to evaluate a student and 1 setback doesn’t mean you didn’t deserve it.” Said coach mike, one of the best guides to the exam, they both with many other students spent hours a day training and solving the most probable questions to be asked, as a teacher, he had faith in all of his students. Then came the selection perio...

  Life takes unexpected turns; the funny thing is it does not require your permission to it! Just imagine you’re in a cab and you want the driver to turn right and he ignoring you turns left, and you have relocated, in the end, you get fed up and leave the cab, guess what?! You can’t do that in life, by anyways getting off a running cab is suicide in both cases. Therefore, you don’t have a chance other than changing the destination. In such you look up to god and ask him why the hell you are doing this to me, I wanted to go somewhere else, I ended up somewhere else, the metaphorical version of” jana tha japan pahuch gaye chin samaj gaye na!” but life goes on you have to relocate several times. I’m in midst of  relocation too, I spent 2 years of my preparing for an m.pharm entrance test called GPAT. I was truly determined to live my life as a research scientist, looking for new drug candidates to change the course of humanity, give new life to patients all over the world. It ...

  Lockdown has been transformational, everyone I know has changed in some dimensions, whether its   fitness or wellness, the habits that have been formed and removed the entire addition and subtraction has been a positive-sum. Over the past few months I've become more meditative, read books on various topics, been exposed to a different set of minds and was able to create a blog. Overall the the journey has been excellent, the days that I have meditated multiple times a day and those experiences have been blissful . If someone asked   me what was the biggest lesson\change of the lockdown Id say it was the realization of compound effect. Compound the effect is when small changes everyday end up in huge sum results that were unexpected when the deed was initiated. You can get a glimpse of it by this eg. Suppose your lazy and want to lose weight , but consistency kills you, you cant stick to the process , you want to progress fast but you the work is too much, well, th...

    The ego of I know. The world is filled with people who know everything there they are ready to teach you or as should say, brainwash you into their way of thinking. They know everything, have an opinion on everything and can distinguish every right from wrong. They are the torchbearers of the society,telling us what to do in every part situation, whether they have experienced it or not. They know everything and are always right. Where do you find these people? Oh! You find them everywhere, they sit in class next to you, travel with you in the bus, you watch them on television debate shows, they might just be peeking through their peripheral vision into your screen judging what you read! You can`t change their mind, hell! You can`t even put your own opinion in front of them. They constantly have on 2 emotions a) condemnation and b) ego. Don’t get me wrong, they are not bad people, they’re just ignorant. Also a little self-conscience about their image, in my observatio...

  The swishy, sticky matter, the top floor the inner narrator the reason you could even understand what I write !!! yeah that’s right I am talking about our brains… well it was evident enough when you read the title but…. We all have this guy sitting up there telling us to wake up do the routine, scroll through the feed , stalk the crush, click on the blog, watch another episode and dream this dream. Something we want to do some that we have to, we seldom question this impulse and follow it like a plant in sun. Our brains have this wonderful capacity to amplify the feeling, and also to diminish it just by the thought of it, ever felt you could eat more when you were eating your favourite dish? Similarly see yourself eating a dish you hate! The brain not only tells you what to do but also it listens to you. For eg. Remember when you were little and you got hurt, one of the parent would do all they could to take your mind off it! And suddenly a few minutes later the pain would le...

  Exams were invented/discovered to analyse and improve the student function and to improve his ability to face the world. Exams were a tool for the teachers to evaluate the the students understand the blindspots and fill them. In ancient times the students left their homes and lived with their teachers , rishis and yogis would come to their houses and select their pupils and take them to train the as per their requirements. These trainings would consist of reading of vedas and purans, reciting the mantras and others spiritual practices. Focus was to create a well rounded individual who can face the array of difficulties and challenges life throughs at us. Students were also taught to defend themselves, cook, farm and take care of cattle and other domestic animals. Apart from that one teacher only had 2-5 students at his attention. This built a strong connection between the guru and sheeshya, many could call them a team and they were indeed. An example of individual training comes ...

Human are social, emotional, and irrational people, we can predict how other people are going to behave but still can’t decide what to do with our selves, some times we get so lost in our selves that can’t see what others want of us. Well same goes the other way round well.  I can’t emphasize enough the value of human relations, I was always the one to think that beauty on the inside is what matters, I was right kind of, but you know we live in a world where the book is judged by it cover no matter how much we try to tell people. This article too is for a person who used to put others before himself, value others opinions more than himself’s, a person so fresh, that he thought he understood humans, but was not even able to scratch the surface, yup! I’m talking about myself.  When I was new in college everything felt like a rainbow, new friends, new place, suddenly from the shed of my parents I fell into to basket of my friends, some them much smarter, and experienced than me, ...

How to make someone laugh has always been a question for many, what is it that makes people tickle and how can I do it too?! Well here we learn from the greatest of fictional characters that have inspired me to be funny...let's see how they do it. A sense of humor is a gift it helps you blend in with people to understand their emotions and complexities. It's not only a tool to make others laugh but also for yourself. Humor gives you the perspective to view the world in a very unusually unique and that makes the humor game so creative. Funny people always have a way out! Heck! Even smiling can do it, suppose your teacher or wife is scolding you for some reason and you just happen to give them a smile!.. the tension dissolves. Personally having a sense of humor has helped me a lot in life, I've made friends, have better experiences with strangers, got out of troubles, and always had a good! Now, do I have to tell you the benefits of laughter?!? In a very basic sense, it h...

Over the years of being an average student I always wondered how and what is it that the brilliant students do that sets them apart from the crowd, what magic potion they drink and what notes they make, just like so many of us I've been in the rut of asking the scholars for their notes, much to my chagrin I didn't really see any substantial differences except they were much more organized and diverse than most of the average student's. I saw some of them cramming text books, some referred foreign authors, others were after teachers for...you know why! But still I knew there is something they did differently that made the epiphany. Days past and I forgot about it, everyone does...until the next exam, then again studying late night with my friends I thought "how the hell these scholars do it!!", I mean the time me and my friends are mugging up answers and teaching each other concepts we don't fully understand, bantering over stuff we could have done, and wh...