Ronny's Quandary

 

It had been a long day, Ronny has had it enough, he was pissed off, depressed, and feeling alone. The past 2 years he spent preparing for the all India scientists league but he got knocked out by 3 points in the entrance exam. All the sleepless nights, the painstaking notes, and the hope of all his friends and juniors were shattered. The visuals of their disappointment tormented him through the night. He was frustrated. He didn’t know what to do, he knew its not the end of his life neither that he was alone who fail in the entrance exam, many more of brilliant colleagues couldn’t get through it, his coaches too condoled him, “cheer up son! 1 exam is never enough to evaluate a student and 1 setback doesn’t mean you didn’t deserve it.” Said coach mike, one of the best guides to the exam, they both with many other students spent hours a day training and solving the most probable questions to be asked, as a teacher, he had faith in all of his students.

Then came the selection period, the most prestigious of universities were admitting the students, who’ll later go on change the world in their respective fields. But Ronny was still upset this time not by himself, but because of the students who were getting admitted to the top universities. As if the shame of failure was not enough even envy came it for its part.

In front of his eyes were also the students who were mean, thankless, cunning, and masters of flunkeyism, the fake friends, the liars, and the cheaters. Students who wouldn’t pass if it were not for Ronny’s help And they got the best of universities, seeing the disproportionate distribution of ‘success’ made him bitter from the inside, he didn’t want to go out, talk to his friends because they’re all the same, he thought,” All are selfish little bastards who only come when they need something, turds! why do all the worst people get all the best in the world!?!” he cried.

But he was not totally biased, he also saw their late-night study sessions, the flattery they had to do to the teachers' notes and attention, which paid them in the long run, their love for the subject, their need for respect and money when they become someone, their focus and dedication. He saw all of this and more, 1 part of him wanted the seat, the fame, the qualification, and the other 1 was beating himself and his ‘friends’ for getting it. He realized the irony and hypocrisy.

Even though he hated their ways and the people who did it, he also realized his mistakes, the time he became overconfident, ignorant, and careless about his study, how he underestimated the load of the jab and overestimated his capacity, how he wasted time trying to 1 up each other and not collaborating towards the common goal. How he was so distracted all the time, he was too interested in what others were doing, and either imitating them or criticizing them. He understood all the mistakes and decided he’ll if and when get the chance to be where his friends are today, he’ll not waste the opportunity and make the most of it. This time he’ll do it for himself and not only be satisfied but also proud of his results.